Crossroads.

Usually it's just one straight road. No choices to make. Everything is laid out for you and set in stone for you since you were a child.

PMR? Science stream or Arts stream.

"You got 7A's! Go for Science! You're smart, I know you can!"

"Okay lah."

Decision made.

SPM? Now is the time sparks start flying. The pressure to make a choice is upon you. And this choice concerns you and what you'll be doing for the rest of your life. Some make up their mind here.

"Foundation in Business/Finance/Medicine/(insert field here)" "Matriculation."

Some require higher qualifications to get into universities overseas. And some... Just couldn't make up their minds. So they say,

"A-Levels."

And so it goes on for another year and a half. Most people have already decided on what they've had to do by this point. Most people. Most people except me. I'm presented with two choices. The sunny path, trodden by many witha bright future ahead, or the dark tunnel. Dank, deep, devoid of light, like the bowels of a predator, waiting to engulf unsuspecting prey whole, leaving nothing behind.

As of now, I've chosen the dark tunnel..... And of course, I'm afraid. And I hope, hope that I can achieve all that I wish to achieve. And I believe, I have to believe in the light at the end of this tunnel.

So I pray, pray that I may have the determination to follow my decision through, and be the best that I can be. And I pray that in moments of weakness I will find strength to pursue my ideals. And I pray, that 10 years down the road, if our paths cross again, I'll be someone I can be proud of being, and you be proud of knowing. And I pray the same for each and every one of you who's reading this right now. Blessed be our lives from here on out, down this forking road. Never give in to darkness and believe in the light, for

"Only in the dark when I can't seem to see.
I learn to hear Your whisper that's been guiding me.
Reach out for the hand that bears the light,
So my step is right,
Only in the dark."
Juwita Suwito - Only in the Dark
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"When you really have to, muster the courage. Take the road less taken and hold your head high whether it turns out for better or for worse. Chase your dreams, rediscover passion, for daring to dream is passion. And passion is love. And love heals all."
-Tim-